words of wisdom

Well Well well…. So much for the hype in Canada I htink the only country that gave so much publicity for the movie including Canada AM in CTV which had 2 day special on the movie locations.
But at the end was it worth for that much hype! NOOOOOO not at all!
The movie was so boring! There wasnt any excitement or any thing form that movie. Rather it was like a documentary on the holy grail quest! darn! There were so many incredible twists and turns and tension in the book, the scenes were crafted amazingly in the book but the movie oh boy it was just a waste of money!

First of all I didnt like Tom Hanks as Robert Langdon… There are far better people to fit in hischaracter but not Tom Hanks… I think Tom Hanks was too old.. Didnt have the athleticism and the magic that Robert Langdon had.
I think Audrey was hot and sexy enough to be Sophie Neveu! I think she was the only person that was well portrayed.

The other cast were alright nobody seemed memorable for me. The cinematography lacked the extraordinary feeling the book gave us. Again nothign memorable form that.
The worst thing of all was that all the actors were speking the dialogues straight away form the book which was pretty annoying. It felt like a memorised speech more than acting.

Anyways when I think about the Holy grail and the story regarding Mary Magdelene, For some reason I think she was Jesus’s wife. I dont knoow dont take me wrong all you catholic people but I dont know for soem reason it feels right. Jesus is human too who did extra ordinary things but it doesnt mean he shouldnt marry and have a kid! But i dont knwo about the existing bloodline it feels a bit odd to beleive!

In my relgion which is Hinduism god does do extra ordinayr thigns but at the same time they have every single human qualities possible. Like Lord Shiva has a two sons, one who is what everybody expects to be how a man should be and the other whos a bachelor and who has a abnormal face. But still they are god!

So no matter what qualities we posses we are all different and we are all equal to god!we are all divine one way or another!
Its just that some realise it while others dont!

Well if the Mary Magdelen story true I am very happy…Now ive got to study! I also want to go on a foreign trip! Everybody is flying to their homelands this summer and I feel jealous! lol

Have fun guys!

Oh yeah… University seems to be a BAD LUCK charm for me..From the time I entered to University I am simply struggling struggling struggling…. I dont know whats going on..I feels so depressed..

First entering into University was a struggle…. I took Bio un-necessarily and coldnt memorise a whole shit from that book, Algebra was totally screwed up first semester and my firstUniversity marks were very low…. Then I had to work twice as much to just get my mark to the acceptable level…That was done and I got into University! Hurray!….But hold on..

First semester was just nasty….. The civil course was a nightmare….All my profs were like witches and warlocks trying to boil me up in a potion….There was not a single Prof who I felt like studying for…their faces were simply dull and boring and they just made me hate university…. Their teaching methods were far beyond horrible….My peers seemed to not connect that much with me….Everything seemed like a never ending maze….OH Lord! Some how with a magic 50 for CIV I passed 1st semester….

Everybody was saying 2nd semester is easy becuase you passed 1st semester and all the courses are better… Oh yeah thats how I felt the first few weeks…. But then came that nightmare again which I thought I would never experience again…. All the profs who seemed nice at the beggining started to put on their nasty faces and started to teach the boring way…. Everyclass made me to sleep…..Again I felt I didnt connect with my peers… I just wanted to run… The minute the classes were done I just wanted to go home since I felt I do not belong in this crappy place….I have cried endless nights trying to figure out why I chose this Why or why! But the answer doesnt seems to reach me….But soemhow I had the feeling I would pass this…. But then came the final exams…. I studied the most for Calculus but thats what I struggled the most with…When I saw the paper I was speechless I knew that day that 2nd semester is not goign to finish that easy… Now the marks are up…. and thank you I DID fail Calculus…. Oh thanks again….I have to pay a freaking 830$ just to repeat my never ending nightmare….I am on probation as well Wow doesnt that make my day a little better…. My mums alright but my dad oh boy!…. He starts a convosation with soemthign else and ends it with my failed mark! Damn… wHY IS LIFE SUCH A STRUGGLE FOR ME… It hurts….I cannot cocnentrate on anythgin else except think about me my failing and my future and where I am gonna end up…. Am I going to be the disgrace in my family! Am I the ugly duckling…??….Every single relative is judging me….They dont appreciate me when I do somethign really well but they are always ready to complain and laugh at me when I am failign and struggling….

Oh lord…I am confused Depressed…I dont know who to talk so openly….I always wish that I could ask all my un-answered question form lord himself….I want to see him right now!….I want to knwo why I was born? to struggle so much? To cry everyday? To be a disgrace to my family? Do I have a future and what is it!….

Sorry for thsoe who read this becuase it totally depressing I know .. but i want it to be out of my mind atleast for some time…. I ll end it now…Good luck to the others!

P.S: After so much irritation tonight by my dad Ive decided to not talk to him….Seriously I am totally irritated…There is always a limit in what you can handle…He always appreciates one thats an Engineer or a Doctor I guess its my time to prove I am not any of that… If he has a problem with that then I am more than happy!

Anyways there is blast of events happening to me for the past five days…..Ive been totally busy from Thursday…I really wish this continues for 4 more months to come! Please give me a summer job!

First My last exam was on Tuesday which was totally nasty….Most of the people I talked to seem to struggle with it…anyways sick of talkgin about exams! Then Thursday I had my APS final presentation which I think we did an awesome job! Team 32 rocks! Tarana, Justin, Gleb, Zhi Wei and Greg you guys rock..The presentation went without any troubles and everythgin went on smoothly…I am so happy becuase we were the only group I htink who did so much research and work on to makign thsi a memorable presentation!

After the presentation it was off to the Milestones restaurant to celebrate Sophies 19th birthday! I joines Andrew, Steph and Sophie aorund 5 that day and had a wonderful time… From the time we met we were continuously laughing our asses off! There was so much to talk about..and everythign we started on ended with a laugh….For some reason I felt that the way the whole dinner went showed a bit of our maturity level…Why I say that is becuase the jokes me made(90% of the time), the stories and all the thigns we shared were not childish at all….Everything we demonstrated showed that we werent 10 anymore…not even 16…But 18 and up and we are in University…I was happy to see that! Thanks for making it an awesome evening guys….Its so memorable…but not the food….Even when I think about it now it makes me sick…yuk!
After the dinner we went to old brown WOBURN for the spring concert….The concert had varieties like May and Krista’s duet, the gospel style song by concert choir, Chamber choirs amazing songs and so on…But for some reason I didnt feel connected…It doesnt feel memorable…I really dont know why….
Friday went to MI-III and it was awesome! I really dont like Tom Cruise but this movie was so good…Not that the story was very good or inetersting…it was the action sequences which just kept me awake the whole time…. I wanna see it again!

Finally Saturday I unexpectedly got some tickets to watch the Carnatic concert of O. S.Thiagarajan.. He sang really well….different flavours of Raagas and all but the songs didnt really suit the audience….They were mostly in Sanskrit or Telugu and the songs looked very complex….showing the mastery of Raagas and Carnatic music rather than entertaining the audience….Maybe becuase the audience was filled with maestros of Carnatic music ..but still it was worth the experience…

Anyways marks are up any time this week….. But I am really scared about MSE and Calc…I am like in the border….PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD DONT FAIL ME! I DONT WANT SUMMER SCHOOL! PLEASE!

THATS IT FOR NOW
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