words of wisdom

I dont know everything around me and the thigns that keep on happening to me are just fucking irritating me….seriously..I really dont knwo why the hell I am still alive… its not a day or two that I feel like this…its freaking everyday…..nothing is going right…SIMPLY NOTHING! damn..

I think the main reason for this is the fact that I hate my Chem Eng class. They are worlds most boring and selfish people put together in one room who dont give even a fuckign smile at you! Talk about friendly damn I dont think they knwo the meaning of it…. if its only one or two people in a class i dotn mind btu this is the fucking whole class…. Only thing they tlak about is studies and smile only if they want help and thats it…you are like a fool and an idiot just tryign to gain friendship but well you are a fool so YOU ARE WRONG! they onyl use you! FUCK IT MAN!
This makes me feel so lonely… I dont seem to find the meaning of going to University other than to attend boring sleepy lectures…. When i wake up first thign in the morning the thing i say to my self damn shit! I have to go through this again! why cant i simply fall into eternal sleep! SIMPly WHY CANT I!

there are some very very special friends in my life who when i feel this way I really wanna talk to…they make me so happy…i forget everythgin and simply smile when i talk to them… knwo they are busy i knwo they have their own lfie to attend to..but when i am feelign down and when they dotn come online as well I JUST GO MAADD!…i feel like breaking thigns and and cry and go to sleep…man i am pathetic

Becuase of this I get irritated with everyother thigns….its like a Domino effect….every other thign is just simply WRONG!…….my parents….my friends form srilanka…everythgin they say is just getting onto my nerves….i feel like killign my self… i am losing my appetite…my liking to study…my likign towards my violin playing…drawing….I ma just losing my fuckign energy and I NEED HELP! OR I WANNA DIE! one or the other! i simpyl cant take it anymore! some people have tried to help me out but well! nothgin seems to workout…what they sya is right but applying it is nto that easy!

I HATE THIS WORLD I WANNA DIE SOON….FUCK IT